Can someone pray for me? Just in case you passed by my message, I hope you could pray for me too.
Sometimes I dont know myself. Most of the time I forgot to pray, I forgot that there is God. I dont know how I feel. I am so stressed juggling from work, family and studies. My husband is unemployed for now because he is taking care of our 2 year old son but he has a part time job, though. My eldest son who is 12 years old will undergo therapy next month but he doesnt diagnosis yet as we are still waiting. (He is emotionally distressed). It feels like I’m always chasing time and deadlines, especially at work. I still have so many pending tasks. I’m also studying law, but I only took a few subjects because I know it would be hard for me, especially since no one else helps us but just me and my husband. We can’t rely on anyone, not even our own families on both sides. My heart feels heavy. I'm irritated, hot tempered, easily get annoyed but I keep it all to myself. I don’t even know if I should drop another subject in law school because I feel like I’m not good enough. It’s exhausting. It’s stressful. But I can’t show that I’m weak. I honestly don’t know what to do anymore. I feel confused most of the time. I’m always sleep-deprived, and during the day, I feel so sleepy. Sometimes my mood is all over the place. I want to rest, but I can’t because I feel like I’m just barely getting by. I hope God helps me because most of the time, I feel like I’m lost in my thoughts. 😔

I feel hopeless and worthless as I am jobless. I worked before as contractual college instructor, i did not reApply as i never wanted to teach. It's not really my bread and butter. However, i couldnt find a job right now. My husband is working just enough to sustain all our daily needs. He hates me because I did not renew my application in teaching. We dont even talk. I am pregnant with my 2nd baby to be, i know we need financial but I really dont want to teach as it stresses me more. Sometimes id wish id never been born because since my childhood I was never blessed and lucky in my life. I always experience disaster.