I believe in God very much and have had very bad times with regards to my identical twin committing suicide jumping out of my window in 2006 then in 2008 i got breast cancer but that never bothered me as i was and still am crying for my twin - my darling mother passed away last year in january - i am suppose to get married but hve my doubts because i hve never been married but and hve two sons one in South Africa and the other in holland - i really would love to marry the man i met of my dreams but he is a soldier and in iraq, until end of this year, then he will retire and we will settle in england and that is where i would like to live - i need somebody to pray for me and ask God to give me the strength to see these difficult times and decided to marry this man or not!