Lucy, I have been in your situation. Confined to a wheel chair for years. The more I started following Jesus and serving others the more my accelerated bone degeneration disease went away. Today, I am 42 years old and running around like a teenager and out of that wheel chair. Many have witnessed it, my family and community. Suicide is so hard to deal with. When families don't lean on scripture and Jesus for strength that does happen. I am only alive today because at age 15 suicide stopped being an option for me. No matter what I had to keep breathing because I truly believed God had a plan for me in my life. He has one in yours. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem even if that problem lasts 37 years; like in my life. Hang in there. Find your comfort, cry your tears and know that HE IS GOD. Sincerely Gabbi Lovewill. Please keep me in prayer as well for I am under extreme attacks but am eating my chocolate and being a good sport because I know God is up to something Awesome! Father please bring Lucy a new friend that brings her lots of laughter, In Jesus name amen.