Dear Lord I need your help. my husband of two years has admitted to having affairs for the last two years. what did I do that was wrong? why is he asking for forgiveness if he never wanted me in the first place. I cannot trust anything he tells me now, he says he never had anything with those women but their messages dear Lord, he tells them what I wanted to hear in our marriage, he compliments them, he never complimented me, he calls them, he told me he was too busy to talk during the day, he gives them money Lord, I carry lunch!! Lord the pain the pain is great but I have been hurt like this before and I didn't die but I need you now because I know that it will take years to recover and I don't know if I can forgive him. lord lord please take this cup of suffering from me, I cannot feed the baby, the milk has disappeared. I don't know if im writing this because I want sympathy all I know is that I want to stop crying. please give me the strength and guide me on what to do.is he really repentant or just telling me what I want to hear and then he will cheat again after the baby is older? I don't know what to believe.im not perfect, I had my own mistakes but this is to great and I think he is still lying. dear lord I need to stop crying. please help me