I know to wait on you God im so impatient. I know if I knew the future it wouldn't be the same. If I had all the answers I seek i probably would be afraid of the thrill would be gone. But my curiosity is overwhelming. I believe m and I am learning to trust. I am so impatient. I strongly dislike learning patience and waiting. I want to know so bad. I desire direct personal revelation so bad. A progress report. Affirmation that the desires in my heart will come to pass. If youre truly building me for something great. I want to feel that feeling he felt when he told his brothers in excitement that the lord had big plans for him. I want to feel special, I want to be unique. I want to be whole and who I'm supposed to be. I dont really know what i want. Because I know your moving i see what your doing in me but i still find myself unsatisfied when I am assured of the things i want. Please heal me. Please restore my mind and thinking please lord fix whatever is in me that resists joy, and is never satisfied. I know you will Dad. I love you.