I am going to start some christian counseling next week..I have just realized that I have alot of healing to do with so many past traumas in my life..they are huge...ritual abuse, rape.incest, cancer, adoptions, abortions,drugs and alcohol and failed marriages..alot for one person to have to endure in one lifetime...I finally have come face to face with myself and now I need to deal with all of them..please pray I will survive reliving all of it...with the grace of God!...thank you