as this day draws to a close, I have once again seen my life through eyes that are different than that of years ago, months, weeks and days ago.....not where I need to be in my life. I have always been raised in a Christian home, to do unto others, to abide by the commandments and trust in GOD and in his will....I also know that GOD's time is much different from mine or anyone else in this world.....I am known for taking the LONG way around and also hate to hurt others. In my lifetime, I have chosen to put everyone else first, I have always left myself at the end so I wont hurt someone thinking that they have been good to me in one way or another and I dont matter....I am not sure where I am suppose to be nor who I am suppose to be...I feel as though I have put everyone ahead of me and now I have lost one of the most important things left...ME....AS long as I had mama, I knew what to do, if not, then she lead me in the right direction, I am one of those who it takes a wall/ton of bricks to fall upon b4 realizing what everyone knows....please pray for my two sons, that GOD will heal them of the diseases passed down from generations b4 and he will lead them, he will touch not only their ears to hear with but their eyes so they may see what I havent in all the years on this earth.....I also ask that you pray for me and the direction that I need to take, I have been shown through my dreams that I am stuck in a rut but I dont know how to get all I need back or know what is next...I dont want the wall falling on me again because it takes so much to dig out from underneath it...........I know that my GOD will be there for me as he has been in the past but I feel like it is time for me to have my life back.........to enjoy the music....to dance...to sing...to laugh again without fear of tomorrow bringing a river of tears because of the tears from laughter.

spoken prayer to my God but in need of more prayer warriors helping on this request. Very burdened and depressed.

i know there is power in prayer and i am in need of several prayers, MY Lord has been good to me and blessed me and my family several times, i am in need of those blessings again, It is much easier to ask for prayer for my family and their health and I have 2 unspoken requests, i also need GOD to move in the situation with my disablility and to speed it up before my insurance is lost!