GOD, Please help me endure the pain for the loss of my son BOBBY on February 14th 2013. I am lost without my older son. I try to be strong and try not to let it bring me down, but it is not easy. You never ever expect to loose a child before you. I am grateful to have another son, however he is rebuilding himself and I have not seen him since his brother passed away. I just feel so lonely and empty. My son has 2 daughters, they are beautiful!. Peytons mother allows me to see her anytime I want, however Lexies mom makes up every excuse in the book for me not too see her. I dont want Lexie to think I dont love her. I do love her. I just am tired getting older and going through enough myself. I had to put it in GODS hands. Please pray for me. AMEN

Dear GOD
This past Valentines Day I lost my oldest son. He was only 33 and it was quite a shock to me. You never expect your child to go before you. I am trying to move on with my life but its not easy. He has 2 daughters 3 and 10 and I feel for them. I see the youngest child but not the older one which tears my heart apart! I have tried everything and put it in GODS hands. My younger son has removed me out of his life because of some personal things he is struggling with. I cant really go into details, but everything I did was because hes my son and I hate to see him suffer and be unhappy with his life. I also had to put this in gods hands because hes not accepting my help. What brings me deep pain is because now is he time I really need him and hes not there for me or my grandaughters as well.Every time my phone rings I think I am getting a call about my only son left. I want to find peace and worry less/ I need some help. Bless Everyone who prays for me.