I have been looking for my soulmate for a long time, then finally I found her on a christian dating site, we started talking to each other and know more about each other, I felt falling in love with her, actually started resisting these feelings, cuz I had some doubts, I thought it was not a true love.
she was a wonderful person, but I thought to myself I should take it more slowly, and I tried to restrain myself from falling for her.
one day I went to that dating site to check some messages I received to my Email, from some members there, then I found a message from a very nice woman it said she likes me and wanted to get to know me and I found many things in common between her and my girlfriend, so I just replied to her, and told her I want to know you as well, I answered some questions of her, and told her that I am still single and looking for my soulmate.
I know it was very wrong to tell her that, while I am already talking to someone special to me!!
I don't know really why I did so!! but maybe because I was not completely sure of my feelings towards my girl. anyway, I discovered that this woman and my girlfriend were actually one person!! my girlfriend was testing me, then she just broke up with me and told me sorry I cannot continue with this.
since that moment I am feeling very sad and lonely, I was not sure of my feelings before, and that's why I talked to that other girl, but now I am pretty sure that I love my girlfriend, I need her in my life, I cannot sleep at night and cannot stop thinking of her I need her to be back to me, told her about that, but she said, sorry it's too late, you denied me and talked to another woman and told her you're single.
now I am feeling guilty and cannot forgive myself. I know I was wrong.
sent her many messages telling her I am sorry I was wrong and I love you, but she is not accepting my apology. I am feeling very sad for losing her and cannot forgive myself for what I have done. don't know what to do, please pry for me.