I've been suffering from a psychological disease since 2011, but I've only recently come to acknowledge it. It's making me deteriorate physically, become emotionless and apathetic, and has made me wander away from my spiritual walk with God. I lie every day to hide it, and know that my actions are sinful, but it's become so embedded in me, like a habit or addiction that I can't seem to get rid of once and for all. I can't even promise God that I'll stop because I know that I will end up breaking the promise. I always thought I had good willpower, but this is beyond my control.
Please pray for me... that I can find a way to escape this prison in my mind.