I am just so so so so so sad and depressed. I am so depressed over a lack of friendship. A lack of people hearing me when I speak. A lack of respect when I talk. A lack of from hearing from people unless I open communication first. And lack of being a priority to people. I try to channel this depression and sadness into something else. I’m tired. I’m tired of feeling this. I’m tired of having to suppress it or divert it into some other channel. When will I be a priority to people? When will people take me seriously when I speak to them when will people begin to listen to me?

Today’s prayer is this “Sometimes we get overwhelmed with the details and complexities of our lives. Sometimes we need some help to get untangled, to gain a new perspective. Ask for help. Help may come in human or divine form. It may be seen or unseen. Ask, and you shall receive”.

I am asking for clarity. I am asking for advice. I am asking for peace of mind and calmness. I am seeking a new perspective and questioning my decisions. I am not getting the answers from the humans I seek out. I will only receive the answers from the divine however, those answers aren’t coming right now. I am a desperate man in seek of guidance and I am wondering when will that guidance come? I am not a person to easily give up, but when will my time come to when I will have peace of mind and clarity to help me. This is not a demand that I need the answers more of a I hope to get the answers. This is not a throwing in the towel and giving up, but I hope that those answers will be coming.

I’m over work. Help me Lord. Help me find peace of mind. Help me find something where I feel valued and it’s not about the paycheck. Where making a difference to people actually matters. Please? For sake of mind and body.

Im asking God to help me settle my mind with the things I can control. Focus on the things that are the most important and just let the rest go. That my conversation with God on a nightly and daily basis are heard and the answers are coming because with certain issues I feel like giving up and that goes against my nature. I’m asking for clarity, and purpose, a reason to stay where I am. God knows my issues. I hope for an answer.

Going through a difficult decision with work now. Do I leave for peace of mind or stay because of a pay check? In this world of uncertainty nothing seems clear I’m lost

I would like to know what is it I have to do secure a friendship with someone. Why is my time in someone’s life so meaningless? Do I not matter to people? Is that why I have no friends? Seriously a man in his 40s should have a few male friends to rely upon but I have NONE. I beyond sadness at this point. I have no more tears to cry. My loneliness for friendship has faded. How much do I actually mean to people if they don’t care to have me in their lives enough to call me a friend ?

My wife visited the dermatologist. I beg. I pray I ask please let the test results come back negative. Cancer stole my mom from me. Please spare my wife Lord. Please spare my children the suffering I went through when my mom was sick. Please bless my wife and children Lord and keep them healthy and safe. I ask for your forgiveness for my sins Lord and thank you for the blessings you have shown me, the friendship you give me and the love you you continue to give.