God has been so silent..or maybe I just dont know how to listen. My kids & grandkids are moving to NC frim MI and I want to go with them but more important,I want to be in Gods perfect will, to do,to go,where HE wants me to go.I dont know what to do?I feel as though I am on a treadmill ..going no where.Plesae pray that I can hear Him, that I can know HIs thoughts for me...I always think I am such a failure that when I pray,I figure He is just going to chastise me so when I hear positive things,I think it must be me putting those thoughts in my head,I guess I just dont expect anything good to happen in my life.Its been full of chaos,pain,deciet,rejection,pain,sorrow,abuse,neglect,want,sorrow,despair and hopelessness.THOSE things I am familiar with but not joy,hope,peace......please pray for me.....