Jean, I understand and I have said a prayer for you and your wife. But my heart is telling me to tell you this. It could always be worse without the faith. I have had so many tragedies in my life I ask haven't I been through enough? God said No my child enough is enough when I come get you! He said "he don't make no junk" so in my head I'm not junk and he hears my cries and enough is enough when he answers my prayers or when he comes to get me. He might not be on your time, but he is never late. You are not alone you have your wife; she loves you or she would be gone. I have gone through my struggles with God only I have no significant other. (he was killed at 26) Hold on to the beauty of heaven and seeing Jesus the All Mighty where everything will be GRAND! Also look back and see that every month you made it out and you are here today, to me that is because of your faith, you only need a mustard seed! I love you and please don't give up on yourself or God!

Thank you for this prayer as I have the same prayer. Thank you, God, for letting me see this request, thank you, for letting us trust in you!
Amen and Amen