I am a new Christian and am trying to get back to God and everything but i have trouble sometimes believing that he is even there. I pray and everything but my entire heart isnt in it. Bad things have happened in my life and i continue to turn away from God. He is trying to reach me, i can feel it but i dont know how to let him in, how to trust. Everyone says let the Lord handle it, well i have trouble letting go. i like to be in control and thats where i run into trouble. I want to except Jesus i just dont know how. Things keep happening in my life and im just so tired of worrying about things, Please pray that i find Jesus and let him into my life