My husband of 25 years passed away expectantly on May 9, 2015. It was the worst day of my life, then I went and got very drunk at a bar and crashed into a parked car at 3am. They took my to jail and it was horrible. I am sorry for what I have done on that day, but I felt like I was not in control of myself. I am trying to make up for the wrong I have done by quitting drinking and trying to do for people when they need me even if they don't I try to do good things. I am very scared about the future, because I am starting my own business to help pay all the bills that were left, so if I could get prayers also that my 4 children would talk to me again, and I would get to see my grandchildren. They have all turned their backs on me, and I don't know why. I guess that this is what I am going to have to suffer through. My first grandson my husband and myself took care of him since he was 6 weeks old till he was 5 and started school. Now I am not allowed to see him and it is breaking my heart. Please pray that him and my other grandson who I don't even know that much will come back into my life.