Hi Peggy, looking at all of the responses, I can see that you are far from alone. God is with you and your faith and believe in him is all you really need and you have that. I know how it is to be sick, sit in a hospital by yourself. There are nurses and doctors, but no one that we thought, would for sure be there; are present. Physically and emotionally that breaks you down to your core. The one who is always there is God, all you need to do is pray and he will answer. I have lived it. Overtime everything fades and people go, but he stays. You are beautiful and I pray that you find inner peace and enjoy everyday that you have to be grateful to God for always listening and being there for you. I love God so much!