First of all, I want to thank everyone who prayed for me the other day. I was in a dark place the other day and felt depressed and down for long time. It took me a while to get back to my feet and start smiling again. Thank you everyone. Thank you God!
I still have problems running through my head but this time I know that God will be there to help me. I want to get closer to God. There are lots of temptations I feel though. I want to have fun with my friends and experience the world but in order to do that I would have to shut God down i think. Is it wrong to go out and drink with friends and have fun? I want to be a good christian but at the same time i really want to have the full experience. I want to learn what there is to know about the world. Most of my life i spend studying and wasted my years. Would you call these feelings temptation? Please help me God. If these feelings are wrong, please help me reject them. There are so much temptations in this world today. People party and do crazy stuff every day. When i watch movies, i want to be like them. I want to be the person that falls in love and finds the love of her life and has great friends.
I ask you all and God to help me decide what i have to do. I am lost.