You are living your life with the most beautiful mindset. Needing help and support is key though, you are right, in my eyes. Break down what surviving means....paying bills is a reality and when that is compromised, it causes so many other struggles and fears, it's so hard to find joy. Your words are resonating with me deeply. REACH out to any organization that can financially help you. GO TO your library and research on line, go to a social services office and dont' stop going, don't stop asking, don't stop looking for help. Smile and you are loved....but be proactive, know you cannot solve all problems even though we want to, especially with our kids. We can't solve it all, we cannot foresee when some people have been given it easier and others have not. My feedback is what it is...but I am hearing you. I validate you and I hope this helps even a little bit.

God, I bring Carmz Leeyona before You in the heaviness she carries. Her body is tired, her mind is stretched thin, and her spirit feels worn from holding up a household that should never rest on one set of shoulders. She has been trying to keep her family steady, to protect her children, to fill every gap left open — and the weight has become too much. Wrap her in a strength that doesn’t come from pushing harder but from being held by You. Let her feel Your steadiness under her feet and Your calm settling over her heart. And God, reach into her husband’s heart. Break through whatever has hardened, distracted, or disconnected him. Teach him responsibility, tenderness, and partnership. Remind him that marriage is meant to be shared work, shared love, shared burden. Restore what has cracked between them. Rebuild trust, rebuild unity, rebuild the bond that once made them choose each other. Bring healing into their home and guide them back to each other with humility and compassion. Amen