pray that I may understand. UN/Conditional Love. I need to understand, if someone mistreats you repeatedly and , you keep forgiving them. Even when they hurt your child emotionally ...You forgive and ask them to try and do better. They basically laugh in your face... finally you say," I can take no more. I can't do it , you have hurt my heart way too much" How do you do this unconditionally. Is that love? If it was or is love how can it be unconditional? I am confused because I love myself and my children... love, want the best for him I just don't want him creating his form of crazy in my world or my sons. Help me father because I don't want to hurt another , I must protect me and mine... How do we do this with love?

Last night I wrote a very angry prayer , it showed up on my fb and I became enraged. I shut down everything! I went to bed and woke this morning with an old Amy Grant song in my heart..I think it is called, "Everywhere I go". I have felt such peace all morning it is amazing. I have searched for my request from yesterday and can not find it. Sometimes i find I need to release the ugly or bad so I can see the good. I try to be as human with G-d as I can because that is all I am. I am not always perfect or wise... and I know my creator can see me better then any human being could ever, so to act all peaceful and saintly would be a lie. G-D knows every strand of hair, every cell... how can I be anything but what I am? I don't know how to pray the so called right way , I say the lords prayer and then I say what is on my heart! I used to several years ago say all the perfect words as I had been taught by my Grandmother, church and christian mom. I slowly found that I wanted a more intimate real relationship and I began to come clean with my maker. He became my ABBA/ beloved and I his child. I now get afraid that being so honest is not right I watch all the good people talk so nice and I wonder if maybe there is a right and wrong way... I really don't think so but I wonder. I woke with such peace and a clean, clear mind I don't think so. Please pray for me, that I may have wisdom and understanding. I think that what I have is right for me yet as I read others I just want to be sure.

I need my faith back. I lost it a while ago and have been struggling with god and his will for me for about five years. I love god and am confused as to what god wants from me or even for me. I felt that when I needed him most he left me and I was alone I know the whole thing of footprints... I just don't feel I can trust him.... to be fair? To be loving toward me? I am not sure.. I just know I don't trust god like I once did!

I have just past through a really hard time for me ...my ex husband my best friend my confidant.... one of only two people in this whole world that I knew loved me unconditionally... was murdered senselessly...he was only 44 and the father and dad of my sons... I had just recently became aware within my heart to how much I really loved him... there are many things we had done to each other which really hurt and caused anger between us . I have sunk into such a depression I don't even seem to care . I don't know what to do or feel ... I truly need prayer and words to help me find my way out of this place. Please any and all help is greatly appreciated... I ask that god bless and open your heart to give him a hear felt prayer for me mine and for the soul of a sad and good man... Thank you
cheryl

Feeling kind of lost, alone and afraid. a lot of lose in the past few years and a whole stream of events that keep happening with each passing... It is odd but this is how it goes and I am trying to change this or not have it happen... The passing, I get depressed, then I get some sort of message from my bank that a check has bounced. I think it is my fault run to bank and find, 1st time, some one was stealing from me. this time the bank made a mistake. the next thing is the sewage system stops working and backs up, or house floods... I get in trouble with my landlord money is late, because of bank. The last time I lost my home and had to live in an abandoned building that I had to pay 500.00 a month for with no gas or electric. I am becoming afraid again.
What am I suppose to learn? what am I suppose to do? What is going on? Is there something God wants from me that I am just not getting... This is how I became so upset with God the last time... Alone and cold in a strange town ... I mean the last time it was the most horrible thing in my life and I prayed... it was my father that passed.. I can't take this again this is my ex husband, we had just made amends and were learning to care about each other in a new way... I was in the process of working with god and feeling enlightened and finding a church... and again... The time before that was my grandmother.. I mean it has to be something that I am suppose to get... I can't understand! Please help me pray for me or give me some kind of understanding... Can any one discern anything. I am trying to have faith and with each new thing I become afraid. My question is and has been God if you love me if I am one of your children, why? I don't mind going through loss I know that comes with life. I am not any better then any of your other children .you said never more then i can take, i can't do this! please don't make me go through this again. There are more parts to this... the first time I gave my ex husband my children for six months. the second time my youngest for a year while my oldest lived in covenant house ... now he isn't there and they are grown18 and 22. I want to believe he has better for me and mine , I am just finding it hard to see. What am I suppose to learn?

I want to send up a joy filled prayer.... I want all that are in sorrow, all that are lost, all that need their soul nourished... To hear this...

I had a terrible experience, my ex husband had been murdered almost two months ago. I came to the brink of losing my sanity... I was so filled with fear and sorrow.

He had been a drug addict for years, and had finally gotten it right... He had found GOD and I was so pleased I was joyous. My David was coming back.... .He had remarried, So I had no hope of our getting back together.. I just loved him . He was my friend , my children's father, the man I had known so many years ago.

The weekend of Thanks Giving that Saturday he was shot to death by a young man he was trying to help.

Yesterday, I went back to work after a long break, for my mental health.

Today I found out that they had a prayer group pray, for me and my ex husband... I really don't know these people and to be lifted up by them made my heart over flow with love of the Father...
I had lost faith and was slipping into a place I had never known I could get. I was sure I would slip into darkness and never come out.

One day some one said trust that GOD has a plan and you will come out in his time not your. TRUST HAVE FAITH. I did ... I DO and I am coming out and his plan is so much better then mine... THANK YOU ABBA... THANK YOU HIS CHILDREN... I AM BLESSED TO HAVE HEARD THE WORDS AND BLESSED BY THE LOVE OF ABBA.

I am asking for you wonderful people to pray for my niece. She is a young woman and is physically ill right now. We are not too sure what is all going on ... she is suppose to go for testing on Tuesday. She is a mom of a 8 year old and a good mom. I love this young woman for so many reasons. She has been through a lot and lost many people in the last few years. Your prayers would help her through I know. Thank you so much for all the divine love you have shown me ... Please spread a bit more for this child...
Thank You cheryl

Here i am again ... I am asking for prayers for a dear friends mom. I am not sure exactly what is wrong but she is in the hospital . She is a little over sixty and not in the best of health. I am also asking for prayers for the friend that no matter what the out come that she hold fast and trust in the lord to get her through...